So I got a good amount of emails asking about the 24 hour fasts. I have been meaning to write this post for awhile now but thought it was kind of all over the place every time I tried. It long people, so beware!
When first starting restricting your food intake I think people have different reasons. Whether it is to lose weight, depression, etc. Mine was for control. I said this before there was something I could not control in my life and that really was the root to all of it. It is going to sound really random but it was acne.
I had never ever had even a pimple growing up, ever. Then one day I was in the hospital for a tooth surgery reason and I could not eat barely anything that week because I had this freaking instrument sticking out of my mouth. That week I had gotten my period. I guess my body went into a weird sort of shock from not eating OR working out which I had already done normally that I had finally got my period after probably a year. Okay, so I am becoming a girl, thought nothing of it.
The month later when I probably should have got it, I of coarse didnt. Again thought nothing of it. Instead I had got this horrible cystic acne all around my face. I was a 21 year old girl getting acne for the first time, wtf. I was deep into veganism at the time and really was feeding my body correct that I was trying to treat it the holistic way. I spent hundreds of dollars on expensive creams, washes, etc. Nothing. I had a obsession with my face that anything I did or put on it now would make me break out. I held the phone away from my face like a crazy person when I would talk on it, my pillow case was changed DAILY. Plus, if I woke up with another pimple in the morning and say I ate soy sauce the night before. Soy sauce was out. Peanutbutter? Hell no. I was starting to cut everything out because I thought certain foods were making me breakout. I tried going on birth controls but my body kept rejecting it and I’d get my period for months straight. No thanks I rather not get it. Unless however, it did clear my face, which it didn’t. I was on the “clear skin” diet pretty much. I believed that food was the cause of this acne breakout because this is what I was reading all over the internet. Brown rice and barley however was suppose to be good for the skin AND it made me wake up with no extra pimples. Meaning, I ate that daily. But I also read don’t eat to much of these grains, only about 1 cup daily. So even more of a decrease in my foods.
One day when I wore these pants (more on that in a diff post) to work, I got so many compliments how skinny I looked. I did not see how much weight I was dropping since I was fixated with my damn face. I told my mom about all these compliments and she said yeah your getting to skinny are you getting enough protein? Like any worried mother would say to her daughter vegan. Since I haven’t calorie counted in years at this point I went on the computer and typed in my day of eats and was barely 800 calories. My day consisted of 1/2 c of fruits with oatmeal, a PLAIN salad with maybe alittle balsamic vinegar, stiryfry with veggies and brown rice (only 1 cup!) and as a snack since “everything” made me break out was a sweet potato. Yeah I love my sweet potatoes but as a dessert every night. Go figure, I love my popcorn!
I then centered planning my food and realized I cannot control how I look on my face, but I can make my body look how I want it to. The weight just came off. Then the scale obsession started. I can control what that number will say so I loved it. I sound like I was all happy and giddy that I can make a number be what I wanted to or eat exactly what I wanted. When really, I was as depressed as you could get. I’d cry when my “magic foods” weren’t working, or of coarse if that scale didn’t listen to me!
I was probably deep into this way of eating for about 6 months. Enough for my blood pressure to drop to levels that I don’t know how I was functioning, my hair to begin fall out, and my skin to even look crappier. Top if off I avoided everything and everyone. I hated going to school and wouldn’t talk to anyone. I absolutely despised going to work because I am a cosmetologist, who wants beauty tips from someone who skins was a wreck. I hated that the most, customers that gave their input of what worked for them, wash your face! No shit sherlock. I was in denial though. I went for tons of blood tests to see if I was getting enough of my nutritional needs for my 800 calorie diet and lucky me I was. Luckily, I then came across the blog world which saved me. These people ate real food in humane amounts and looked so happy and duhhh had clear skin. I ended up upping my intake but I still had this food obsession of eating only certain foods. After another blood test, I had a hormone imbalance and pretty much too much testosterone in my body which was part cause of the acne. Meaning food was not going to cure this. Trust me, after I found out this news I was on the hormone balance diet which was pretty close to my normal diet.
I had finally got it through my head that I cannot cure this with just food and that all the holistic creams in the world would not help. I went to the dermatologist. He tried me on medications but I would get allergic reactions to it and just be rashy and itchy. Then he finally tried some water pill which he was hesitant to try because I was already skinny with naturally low blood pressure (at this point it went up to it’s normal levels but I already have low bp). But I was willing to try anything at this point so I promised him I’d watch my bp like I already did and go from there. Bam! A month in I cleared up. I got my hair, confidence, and life back. I actually wanted to go out with friends and wasn’t scared of certain foods anymore. However, this non acne face lasted from Dec-July.
July comes, I get my period. Yes, I haven’t had it since all the birth control experiments about a year before. My body did a 180 again and tadaaa the acne had returned. When I first went to the Dermatologist he wanted right away to put my on Accutane. Yes, Accutane. If you haven’t heard of it you may have only heard bad things about it, like I did. So that’s why I didn’t want to try it right away but now that my medication that worked before wasn’t anymore I was willing to do anything!
I gave in to the Accutane. Though I heard horror stories about it, each person telling the story had a clear face.
Since November I have been on this medication and it is a miracle drug. Not only is my face clear, but I again got my life back. I have confidence to talk to people again and am not afraid to eat sugar, flour, or drink coffee (obviously). Each month I got to go for blood tests and a pregnancy test because like I said this pill means business. The first blood test I went for I did the regular “don’t eat anything after dinner” fast before it, but my doctor said I had high levels of whatever it was and to do a 24 hour fast instead before it to prevent this. I got 2 months left and hopefully never again have to go back on it again, but we shall see!
Have you ever suffered from acne? If so, anything work for you?