Before & After

2007

I graduated highschool without a care in the world.  In highschool I was a skinny fit girl from all the soccer and lacrosse I played and ate horrible!  Thinking of what I ate I cringe.. bacon egg and cheese on a bagel with homefries for breakfast, french fries with the best cookies ever for lunch, and whatever my mom made for dinner which was somewhere along the standard american diet.. burger fries, spaghetti meatballs, or my favorite at the time, chicken parm! and we cant forget senior year I ate tgifridays daily. They knew me in there just because all I would get was the brownie obsession with no nuts (i came along way, no nuts ?!?) and I would sometimes go straight to practice after eating that, go figure!

PS sorry for all the bathing suit pics its all I have on this computer for now lol

2008

I was going to college,meeting new friends, drinking, late night taco bell runs, we all know how it goes.. Also I was not playing sports daily so it wasn’t looking good..Though I was never “fat” I was bigger then I ever have been and it

like i said I am not fat or anything like that but I know how crappy I felt being always bloated hungover and just always craving junk food, dominos cheesy bread anyone?

2009

I started to work out again more mostly doing the weights at the gym and this is when the calorie counting obsession came.  I had a book I’d carry everywhere and even though everything I was eating was not really healthy (tgi fridays microwavable spinach dip with only 17 chips, ill take it for only 300 calories) but nonetheless I did lose the “bloat” and but still was eating crap

2010

I read this book called the new york diet and I swear this is where my eating habits changed both for the better and worse in my opinion.  Long story short this diet you cut out ABCDEF= alcohol,breads, carbs, dairy, excessive sugars and fruit.. FRUIT?! Some days the meal plans were like 950 calories too, so I was on the whole high protein 2-3 shakes a day, egg whites, greek yogurt, and plain chicken.. I looked good I had my muscle tone back I had energy but I would have these out of control binges.. One slice of pizza?  Nah i’ll take 5.. This book also taught you if you ever overate to go for a walk then to workout so it was drilled ok I had pizza let me go workout for 2 hours, I hated it but couldn’t stop!

Midway through a friend of mine gave me a book she had just read, skinny bitch.. she’s telling me how it says not to eat chicken and eggs and all I’m thinking is well there wrong, my NYdiet was like my bible.. I gave in though read it and was hooked right then and there I went out and bought all the foods the book told me too.. Though I still had my greek yogurt I cut eggs and meat out cold turkey.  While I may have not been the healthiest vegetarian (oh chips and bagels and vegan desserts galore!) I stopped the binges so I loved this way of life plus I was eating alot more real food and it opened me up to the world of nutrition.

2011

Like any normal person I went overboard for the holidays and well how about all winter..bad snow storms and new cookbooks=snow days with a few pies in the house, for myself? don’t mind if I do..  So I got to my little bloated feeling body back and started to really feel HORRIBLE again.  I got on track I was eating oatmeal with fruit, a salad, and stirfry for dinner pretty much daily for a month or so and felt awesome again and one day I went back to my calorie counting ways and saw I was eating probable 800 calories?  Oh but I was fine it was healthy food and gave me energy so I didn’t mind.  It’s when it got in my head people at work were saying your so thin I was 107 at my lowest, my normal range from my good feeling-bloated feeling is 115-125.  I didn’t binge at all and I was doing yoga now so I didn’t need the high intense energy I needed for my insanity workouts so I was content where I was.  Plus once a week I went out to dinner and got pasta, yes pasta and didn’t go home to work out for hours because that scale would not change.  Clockwork every am I was on that scale, it was horrible.  Plus I was always tired and always depressed looking

I then came across blogs that people had simliar issues that they overcame.. All i thought was “how could that possibly be a 2 serving recipe it would be 4-5 for me” and that’s when I knew I needed to do something about this.  I was unhealthy no matter how healthy I thought I was.  I started making these meals on these blogs and loved it but the binges were coming back..I’d eat a fully nutritious meal and then go eat a jar of peanutbutter (whole jar yessss I know) and be fine about it but I hated that binge feeling being back but I tried to power through.  I knew this was the direction I had to go in my life if I wanted to be happy

2012

Im still on track and going through the blogsphere coming across awesome people with amazing recipes and ideas that I just love to try everything now (still meatless and dairy free besides some fish and eggs) and though I still struggle with binges every now and then I don’t go below my calorie limit because I now know my body won’t be able to keep up with my activity level between running around with school and work or training for different runs I want to do.  I hope to share some of my ideas recipes and thoughts as well as here and learn about people!

9 Responses to “Before & After”

  1. Jennifer November 9, 2012 at 4:44 pm #

    I love your candid Before/After segment. I can totally empathize with the whole binge thing. I was very thin (naturally) too growing up and then BAM — Freshman 15, then Sophomore 15, then Junior 15…Yikes! Over the course of my 20’s I tried every diet out there but the results were temporary and left me miserable.

    Fast forward to a severe health crisis about a decade ago…I started to embrace real, whole, plant-based foods (gluten and dairy-free). My challenge in the last few years has been bingeing on healthy foods (i.e.: 1/2 cup almond butter, healthy smoothies with an insane amount of calories and fat, large daily amounts of dark chocolate). My thoughts were…well it’s healthy, right? So I can have as much as I want.

    I am currently neutralizing this philosophy that is so ingrained into my brain. I’m really embracing eating intuitively…1) Am I hungry? 2) What nutritional deficit does my body need to fulfill right now (carbs, protein, veggies, etc.). 3) If all else fails get out of the kitchen and go for a walk or call a friend.

    Can’t wait to try to pumpkin pie! Thanks!

    • kaityscooking November 11, 2012 at 6:07 pm #

      thank you jennifer and i no thats what i been doing is really trying to find that balance im on the right track def and used those strategies like you did to see if its really what i wanted and my body wanted and can totally relate on the nut butters ! it aint safe around me lol

  2. Jill November 24, 2012 at 4:02 am #

    I’m struggling with all this cycle now. Only the binges are every night. And I don’t exercise (other than casual walks)> I’m 31 and worried about all this. The worse is the digestive havoc I’ve been having. I’m kind of lost to be honest 😦

    • kaityscooking November 25, 2012 at 3:38 am #

      Hi Jill im sorry you are going through this:( its such a horrible cycle ! I have been at that point where they happened more often then not, I think though you realizing you are struggling and have a issue is a big step. I also had to come to the root of my eating problems and why i was doing it (for example if your depressed and emotionally eating, think why are you depressed) and then go from there. Amanda over at http://www.runningwithspoons.com/ is a great read and honestly has such a positive outlook on exercise food and life after recovering from an ED that it shows me there is hope. And really talking about it has helped me tremendously, feel free to ever email me even if its to just vent because you dont have to go through this alone! kaityscooking@gmail.com

  3. Brittany @ DulceVie January 26, 2013 at 10:57 pm #

    I just found your blog and I love it! You have such an inspirational story! I look forward to reading your posts in the future 🙂

  4. Jun February 23, 2013 at 4:16 am #

    Just found your blog. You’ve definitely came a long way! It’s such a shame girls struggle with body images and intuitively eating because so often we’re tie down to anxiety attacks and comparisons. At least, that’s a battle I’m trying to win currently.

    I think it’s amazing – the journey you’ve gone through to reach this stage in life. I believe that as long as we never lose hope, we can overcome our bad habits (binge-eating etc) and rediscover happiness and health 🙂

  5. Erin March 2, 2013 at 3:52 pm #

    Girl I can totally relate, I used to have such a terrible relationship with food and it’s such a good feeling to finally be able to enjoy cooking and food! You look great ! (:

    • kaityscooking March 5, 2013 at 1:37 am #

      thank you erin! i know its so horrible to be so obsessed and not be able to enjoy cooking! glad you can again too!

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