Hey my blogger friends, hows everyone doing? Today me and my cousin went to a park not far from us and hiked the trail (about 8 miles) and canoed for about an hour. And by canoed I mean we followed turtles and frogs around just trying to catch them, i’ll never grow up. I was suppose to meet my friends at the bar tonight but I am literally ready for bed!
So each Wednesday I post my eats from the day before, often pretty balanced and healthy for the most part. But I am human and lately have more days then not of eating junk and sometimes get those guilty feelings and thoughts of punishing myself for doing so. I have come along way in my recovery but still have those binges here and there. I think with drinking more those binges are getting worse and more frequent. There are more days though of me eating my cake and not caring, but having that cake 3-5 days in a row on top of eating other junk, those feelings kick in. I loved doing my smoothie detox because I was eating/drinking foods I normally eat, but I can’t do that weekly, that’s no fun! I like my sushi dates!
I feel if I eat junk one day, it’s a lot harder to wake up and not reach for the muffins and danishes instead of the eggs and oatmeal (am I right?!?) Years ago, it use to be so easy because I’d punish myself, now I mostly go with it. I ate like a beast, i’ll try and eat better tomorrow. I don’t go run 10 miles and work out to burn each and every calorie I had ate the day before. I can’t do that anymore but I still sometimes have those guilty feelings of “why did I eat that?”.
This Wednesday is a different WIAW. Mainly because I didn’t take pictures of what I ate yesterday, it was all over. Ice cream cake, pizza, muffins, Chinese food, cereal, bagels, etc.
Like I said I know I have come along way, and am human and may never get past those guilty feelings 100%. I have got it through my head that if I eat like that I am not going to blow up like a balloon. But still have it in my head that I am not my best if I eat right. You know? This was more of a venting post I know. Sorry guys!
Do you get those guilty feelings after eating junk more often then not? How do you deal with them?